No, your eyes do not deceive you- I am back!
As some of you guys may know I started University this year and it’s fair to say I found the transition from school to tertiary education tough. It was so emotionally and physically demanding and I found myself in a pretty dark place. For weeks upon weeks, I dreaded waking up in the morning and craved sleep because that was the only time I could avoid feeling as though I was not worthy enough of the position I was granted. I was not smart enough to continue with my degree, and a lot of pressure building on my shoulder was unbearable and I couldn’t handle it any longer. For weeks upon weeks I felt alone (mainly because I am an external student with little to no communication with my peers) and as though I couldn’t juggle study, the pressure of finding a job for financial stability, and to keep updating this site- so one had to stop. Although reading and writing are one of my passions it had to take the back seat for the remainder of my semester, which may have added to my depression as I had nowhere to escape when ‘real life’ was too much, but it had to make that sacrifice.
Due to that, I had not read a book in months nor have I once thought about writing a blog post because I could be spending that time on study, and I’m so glad that I made that decision. I found the last few weeks of the semester relatively easier because I wasn’t as stressed about managing so many different aspects of my life all at once. And now that the semester is over, fingers crossed the hard work will pay off, I have all the time in the world to read and write!
I hope to read and review a few books within my eight-week break (now seven), and maybe even some update posts like this because I find them to be therapeutic. My social anxieties have played a lot of havoc on my interactions lately, so I find it easier to write my frustrations; to have a place to destress after a terribly hard day purely because I know that a lot of you guys are in the same situation!
I thank everyone that has stuck around while I figured my personal life out, and I hope that we can move forward together towards something great!